Over committed is a fact of life for me now. A fact that I struggling with and am fighting against, but a fact nonetheless. And I look around to see that this is the general lifestyle for a lot of people. Right, wrong, I don't know....do know that this is not sustainable for me.
The kids go to different schools - a friend who has the same situation by choice has no issues with this....school buses exist for both schools! Not so in my case. So in between 5:45 am wake ups to run around until 7:30 - 8:00 pm every day (recently, even including the weekend!), I am run ragged....sometimes by personal choice, because I can't let go of some little things. Can't even blame others! :-D
So this week has been consolidation and letting go week(end). Let go of an opportunity that I would have loved to do - write a blog for NGOs on finance/economics relates topics. I have to say that I waited till the last moment to let go of this one - really wanted to do it but have to understand and accept that I really don't have the time to manage two blogs a month on top of the original one article a month commitment.
Also managed to transition out a office bearer post into more capable (and obviously more willing) hands today. Funny how tough it was to talk about the challenges of the year - my hands were actually shaking and I laid the paper with my speech down to ensure that others did not see....didn't realize I was that affected deep down. And this in spite of serious work put in - I know I did my best most of the time. Man, when will I learn to stick to some comfort zones?!
Now it is time to focus on the fun stuff. Weekends off by choice to ensure that I am not a workaholic - a genetic condition that needs serious reprogramming. Movie dates with my husband....we start and then get busy, restart only to get busy again. I guess the fact that we restart is in itself a blessing?! Anyways, more of this every week/month.
More introspection and me time, however selfish that sounds. Have to regroup and get back to equilibrium....this state of affairs can't go on. To those who know what I am talking of, hang in there....'this too shall pass' is not my favourite saying for nothing.
G'night!
The Spirit of the Marathon
13 years ago
1 comment:
I thought it was 'this too shall pass AWAY' lol!
I'm struggling myself, I want to know why everything happens all at once. My social life/extended family occasions/career take-offs/kids' school issues, events and assignments/visiting guests/hubby finally getting down to study after one year of procrastination/sickness...I know this too shall pass...into a dull period where NOTHING happens on any front...can the Universe pleae space out my stuff better please!
Sorry for ranting here. We can form an overcommitted mom support group;)
And if you want to catch that movie, ur kids can have a playdate here, you know:)
I didn't know your hands were shaking:) And ppl could see that my whole face was shaking:( I've never been so hurt in my whole life. And you did better than anyone else's best ALL the time. And the next hands are not more capable...but very much more willing (read obsessed!)
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