Two down....now to convert!

Over committed is a fact of life for me now. A fact that I struggling with and am fighting against, but a fact nonetheless. And I look around to see that this is the general lifestyle for a lot of people. Right, wrong, I don't know....do know that this is not sustainable for me.

The kids go to different schools - a friend who has the same situation by choice has no issues with this....school buses exist for both schools! Not so in my case. So in between 5:45 am wake ups to run around until 7:30 - 8:00 pm every day (recently, even including the weekend!), I am run ragged....sometimes by personal choice, because I can't let go of some little things. Can't even blame others! :-D

So this week has been consolidation and letting go week(end). Let go of an opportunity that I would have loved to do - write a blog for NGOs on finance/economics relates topics. I have to say that I waited till the last moment to let go of this one - really wanted to do it but have to understand and accept that I really don't have the time to manage two blogs a month on top of the original one article a month commitment.

Also managed to transition out a office bearer post into more capable (and obviously more willing) hands today. Funny how tough it was to talk about the challenges of the year - my hands were actually shaking and I laid the paper with my speech down to ensure that others did not see....didn't realize I was that affected deep down. And this in spite of serious work put in - I know I did my best most of the time. Man, when will I learn to stick to some comfort zones?!

Now it is time to focus on the fun stuff. Weekends off by choice to ensure that I am not a workaholic - a genetic condition that needs serious reprogramming. Movie dates with my husband....we start and then get busy, restart only to get busy again. I guess the fact that we restart is in itself a blessing?! Anyways, more of this every week/month.

More introspection and me time, however selfish that sounds. Have to regroup and get back to equilibrium....this state of affairs can't go on. To those who know what I am talking of, hang in there....'this too shall pass' is not my favourite saying for nothing.

G'night!